Nancy Pistols

Been feeling kind of a lone lately. I think it has to do with the fact that my roommate has taken up the habit of leaving for nights at a time which leaves me at my place with no one but myself to talk to. It doesn’t help that lately our conversations have been totally superfluous. I guess that’s what happens when you move in with someone you consider to be your best friend. In a way this really makes me reconsider being single. I  just feel like it has been too long since I’ve been with someone and I realized today that no kind of friendship will replace that aspect of my life. There is nothing like waiting to see someone at the end of a long week or waiting until night to tell each other what happened that day. I don’t plan to rush into anything, I’ve learned from experience that that is a stupid idea. I just hope I meet someone soon. I’m kind of tired of feeling numb. 

So I’ve been having a shit time lately at my apartment. I currently attend UCLA and therefore live close to campus with three other girls. One of these girls,the girl I share rooms with, and I have been having problems the past couple of days. The thing is that she is a passive aggressive person which completely conflicts with my personality of being open and direct. Although we have had problems before, this week has been the worst. To begin with my apartment is constantly a mess. This girl loves to cook but doesn’t like to wash her dishes or clean up the stove. You will never catch her sweeping, mopping, picking up after herself, dusting, or anything of that nature. For the past four months she hasn’t once cleaned the restroom. This week I was fed up with cleaning after her, an activity that takes up at least 4 hours every weekend,  so I made a point by showing her how dirty the apartment was. Even after I showed her the gunk of grease I picked up from the stove she denied that it was dirty. The thing is that she wont accept responsibility for anything and likes to take the role of the victim. This makes it really hard to argue with her. Because of her stubbornness( and perhaps mine too), I didn’t let her save face in front of her boyfriend which really infuriated her since she likes to put off the air that she is a clean person. Ever since then she will deliberately speak Chinese in front of me with my other housemate so that I can’t understand. She brings her boyfriend late at night and wakes me up with their talking. In the morning she clashes dishes for no other purpose than to wake me up. Although I’ve told her that her boyfriends snoring doesn’t let me sleep, she had her boyfriend (mind you this guy has an apartment literally two blocks away) sleep over last night which forced me to sleep on the couch in the living room. I am fed up and letting her see how frustrated I am is only going to fuel her even more. I literally don’t know what to do. I am not the kind of person to be pushed around and stepped on which is the reason we are having problems. This girl is used to always having her way and I refuse to conform to lying and pretending like I am fine when its all a big show that allows her to save face. I have signed a contract which forces me to live here until the end of June. Not only does has this affected my sleep but it has affected my school work. I don’t know how to approach her anymore without giving her a clear warning that I will not be fucked around with. I want to make it clear that I can play her game just as well as she can. It will probably be more work for me to be a bitch to her than to put up with her shit but I’m done playing maid in my own house. If anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it.